Friendship and what it means...

My heart has been so full lately. I don't know if I'm getting off a high from the wedding or it's from being married, but I honestly feel I'm finally at a place that I'm happy with...If you would have asked me that five years ago, not so much. I was in a weird place, I associated myself with people who were not good for me, and consumed my mind with petty stuff....This blog is never always sunshine and rainbows, but at the end of the day, I'm okay with that... I learned a lotttttttt about people over the course of eight months that Sam and I were engaged. The people you think will be there for you every step of the way, are no where to be found...And the people who stay hidden, step up to the plate and surprise you. Of course our best friends were angels, but they surprised me even more during the most important time in our lives. I don't know what I did to deserve such wonderful friends. but goodness.. I have them... I have learned in almost 27 years that it's totally okay to count your friends on one hand, rid the ones who make you feel unworthy, and learn to take everything with a grain of salt. People are human beings. We all make mistakes, and at the end of the day, you have to be okay with that... You have to learn to let your heart forgive, forgive, and forgive again. My husband has taught me so much about life and friendships. He has seen me crumble time and time again, but he always tells me, "Let it go...You're not meant to fix everyone." And good Lord, could he be any more right? The hardessssst and most heartbreaking thing that I have had to learn is that NOT ALL PEOPLE ARE GOOD. They're just not. Quite frankly, some people just suck. They want to drain the life out of you because they're just...miserable. Is it just me or has anyone been friends with someone and wondered what happen? The friendship ends, you go your separate ways, and you all continue to live your lives...But every so often, driving in the car, getting ready in the mornings, or on a long run, you wonder what went wrong? As if once again, you can "fix" it! But is it fixable?  Even better, is it even WORTH fixing? It took me awhile to figure this one out, but it eventually hit me about mid March.....My "posse" is good, and they're good for me. That's all I need. My dad told me many years ago that his and my mother's marriage is easy. It shouldn't take a ton of work to be married. It should come naturally and easy. Not every day is good, but you can count more good days than bad ones. I loved the way he paraphrased that and it has always stuck. I honestly believe that friendships are the exact same way. If you're constantly working at a friendship, my dear, lettttt it goo...( As I sing the Frozen song. ) Just let it go and learn to be okay with it. If you're anything like me, that is harddddd to do. Of course, as females, we want to analyze everything...evvvverything....I don't know why we do,we just do. But with all of that being said, hug your friends..Be so thankful for the wonderful friendships that God has given you, but also be thankful for the toxic friendships... Those toxic friendships taught us so much about ourselves and others. I truly believe our Lord places those people in our lives to teach ourselves a lesson. Be thankful they came and that they're now gone... As weird as it may sound, be grateful for the experience. Experiences make us who we are and for that, I'm grateful.

Leaving you with a few quotes I like to live by..